love is in the air

For all we know, this month is the love month. Valentine's day is on this month. This is the month which make the teenagers gone wild with the sweet present and poem, chocolate and candy. Same goes with the adult. Maybe the different is we the adult make it more details and meaningful as a present like sexy lingerie, delicious recipes and a candle light dinner or a seductive presidential honeymoon suite with fresh rose petals on the bed! But for all we know, this month IS the love month.

Since its the love month, the TV channel are full with love movies. Al though I'm not a fan, but i still feel the love. Maybe because I'm a woman, we are more sensitive when comes to love. Or maybe the plan of getting married, which made me wanted to watch and take lessons from the movies. I know, that is the last thing a wise person should do, but hey, i will try anything just to improve my relationship much better. One of the movie i watched, has left a big question in my head. Does a woman could really change a man? Or is it the power of love that change them?

To be honest, up until now, I'm not sure of the answer to the question. from my experiences, i failed to change people that i loved. It doesn't mean that I'm no good to my lovers, just that i have a principal. I don't change people, i want people to change for me, willingly. I have bad lucks with the past love, but i found true love now, and we're happy as an average couple. He willingly changed. Well, that is what i see, i could be wrong, but i know deep down in me, he did change for the better, for me. He became a responsible father to my foster child and a responsible boyfriend to me.

What i dream when I'm in love is to have an almost perfect life with my lover and our family. I would dream that we will be sitting on a porch waiting for our children to come home on a festive season. I would dream that we wont get bored with each other, we still laugh at each other's jokes even we are old. Our eyes still sparkle and our heart still beating excessively hard when we look at each other. That is the life i dream of. The ever lasting happiness.

When every time i look at this photo, i would shed tears yet feel very envy. Envy of their live together. They reach 90 years old of age and still live happily with their spouse. They are the one who gets to sit on a porch waiting for their children coming home every festive season.

These are my grandparents. The photo were taken on their last anniversary together. My grandpa, passed away last year April at the age of 91. He was married to my grandmother for almost 60 years. This is the life that we deserve.

We need to change for the better for each other in order to have an endless happy life. Happy Valentine's day!